I haven’t talked much about my Aspergers here and I thought it was about time.
Over the years I’ve had many obsessions, often called “special interests”. Some of them have included:
- Thomas the Tank Engine (when I was a toddler, obviously).
- “You and Me” (a New Zealand children’s show of the 90’s hosted by Suzy Cato).
- Video cameras.
- Serial killers.
- Severe weather and geological disasters.
- Cricket (the sport, not the insect).
- Recipes for vegan food.
You may be wondering what makes a special interest so, well… special.
One of the major differences between a typical interest and an Aspergers obsession is its intensity. The interests are often used to distract oneself from negative emotions and with being constantly misunderstood by everyone around you, the amount of those emotions can be high.
I found that when as my depression or anxiety worsened, my interests intensified. However this is something that had to be pointed out to me and only in my late teens did I start to understand my own behaviors.
The topics of interest are typically talked about obsessively, especially in younger children that are completely unaware that the person(s) they are speaking to isn’t interested. The conversation is less of a conversation and more of a unloading of information. However as the person with Aspergers gets older they may become aware that others are not interested and this can lead to self consciousness and more isolation due to the increasing awareness of their difficulties with two-way communication.
What did I say before? An unloading of information - & I have just been unintentionally rambling! But I hope that my rambling taught you something new today.
If you have any questions about Aspergers don’t hesitate to ask.
This is a great introductory post on the topic. I hope people see it and learn.
That was my childhood. Seriously. I am not diagnosed on the spectrum. And back when I was a kid, I read it was a sign of a “gifted child.” *ponders*
Yeah, I think you and I both have a lot of head-scratching to do in our future.